Post Baby Ramblings

It is exciting and sad that 3 months have already passed since Eloise was born. I felt that in the beginning time was going by at a good pace- not too fast and not too slow. We were soaking up all the newborn snuggles and watching our little princess sleep alllll the time. Now Eloise is so much more alert and awake during the day. She takes 2 good naps, on a good day, and sleeps through the night minus getting up for 1-2 feedings. We went through some tough weeks where she fought her day time naps, but she seems to be doing better now.

Now that I am 3 months post par-tum I wanted to throw out some of my thoughts about what the past 3 months have been like.

There is no person, book, class or website that can fully prepare you for motherhood.

Being a mom is the hardest job I have ever had, but it is definitely the most rewarding.

I feel proud of the beautiful human being that my husband and I created.

I cannot help myself from taking tons of pictures of her.

I feel sad knowing that she is going to just continue growing up and won't need me in these same ways one day.

I love our middle of the night feedings, even though I am always so tired. These times are so special to me because we share the special nursing bond and it is extra snuggle and smile time.

I have been sleep deprived the past 3 months and I feel like I don't know any different anymore. Who gets more than 4 solid hours of sleep these days anyway??

I love having a little girl because dressing her each day is so much fun. And to my husband...I apologize for buying her new clothes all the time! Hopefully our second baby is a girl.

I spend more time picking out Eloise's clothes than I do my own clothes.

We've had some difficult weeks with Eloise (colic we think) that caused me to completely neglect myself; therefore, I would be lucky to shower every 2 days. Things have since improved.

I cannot wait to hear Ellie's first giggle. We already cannot get enough of her smiles and coos.

We are still co-sleeping which I was not for at first, but it is what works for us and it is going to stay this way.

Every time Ellie falls asleep for her nap it is a mad rush to get as much done in 2-3 hours as possible without being too loud.

I have learned to let my OCD go as far as a clean house because spending time with Ellie is far more important. I still do love to clean though!

I love all of the milestones Eloise is reaching. I hope I never forget them.

Breastfeeding has not always been easy and I have wanted to quit multiple times. At first I thought it was inconvenient having to always cover up in public, use a nipple shield, clear clogged milk ducts on multiple occasions or nurse in the car, but thinking about it...at least I do not have to prepare and wash bottles each and every time she feeds. Plus, I need to be thankful I am a mommy who can produce enough to nourish my baby because there are a lot of women who would die for this.

I am thankful for my husband who loves our baby with all that he has and for working so hard to support our family.

I am thankful for our families who love her so- she is one lucky girl.

Although I love being at home with her during these first few months I have learned I am definitely not the stay at home mommy type.

I feel lucky that Ellie will be going to a really educational and highly recommended daycare on the University campus.

There are times I miss having Ellie in my belly (hehe), but I do not miss the gestational diabetes, preterm labor and bed rest.

I am proud of myself for getting back on a work out routine. I think I am still about 5 pounds away from my pre-pregnancy weight.

I sit around sometimes wondering what Ellie is going to be like when she grows up. I hope those teenage years aren't as bad as when I was going through them.

This dairy free diet has been a change for the good I think as it has seemed to help Ellie, but it sure is difficult to order things at restaurants.

I used to drink hardly any water throughout the day before becoming pregnant. Water is now the only thing I drink these days besides my much needed coffee every single day.

I love being a mommy and would not trade it for anything else in the world. It feels so good to be immediately and continuously loved by my beautiful baby girl.

Well, I am sure there are a million other thoughts that go through my head that I have missed but this should do for now. Quick- post before nap time comes to an end!

Have a beautiful weekend, friends! It looks like we are going to have some hot weather all weekend, in the 90's!