Eloise is almost 5 months old. Can you believe it? Five months! I wish I had the power to slow down time because it really has started passing by too quickly. But something happened the other night that completely took me back. Back to when my little Ellie was just a couple weeks old. She decided she wanted to lay still and rest on her mama's chest which led her to eventually fall asleep. You guys, it was the most beautiful moment- I could have cried. I don't know if I am already starting to feel separation anxiety for when I start school in 3 weeks and she goes to daycare, or what.
She was up past her bedtime because she was just so full of energy and spunk. She was smiling and cooing so it didn't matter to me that she was still up. We were playing and reading and singing. Then I started getting pretty tired. I decided to bring her into our front living room where we have our new comfy armchair. I layed down and rested her on my chest. I am so used to her squirming to get out of that position because I don't think she finds it very comfortable these days. But she didn't even fight it. She was still wide awake but layed there looking straight into my eyes. I couldn't help but just stare back and smile with her. It brought me back to those days and nights where I would lay down with her and let her rest or nap on my chest. It was like her safe haven. She loved it and as did I. She would scoot herself up on my chest as far as she could to get her little head at the very tip top of my shoulder. Must have been the most comfortable spot. I would do anything to have those cuddle moments back. Even though I would sit there and think of the million things I could be doing around the house, I am happy that I "let the house go", in a sense, to enjoy my time with my girl. People always told me to soak it in because it wouldn't last like that forever. Well, they were right. These days she likes to be up and facing forward taking in all that goes on in the world around her. I don't blame her...I am a curious one too.
Be still, my heart. Be still.
I am so thankful to have had 5 1/2 months home with her before starting school. I am excited and proud to be heading back to school, but I know I will miss these early days.
